Allies-Wonderland

 I thought I'd specially make a journal entry just to tell you that I discovered how fucking long my hair is today. It nearly touchs my fucking ass. I didn't even notice how long it was until someone said about it today. wow. Yip, thats all. Bai.

 I realized how long I've gone without DA when I saw that I have written on this that I'm apparently still sixteen. I don't see how or why I got so distant from DA. Ohwell. I'm back, for the meantime. I guess I have alot of news. Not sure which of it is worth telling. My sister Kelly had her baby. A little girl, named Indigo Skye. Which may be a little different. But completely expected from her mother. She likes different, and so do I. I honestly love my sister so much. I've been spending a lot of time with her lately. Its nice. Other than that, the rest of the news is complications with relationships, mostly to do with friends mistakin

  Desiring for something to actually feel real. -I try, am trying, something. If I was crazy, right now, I'd be paranoid that someone was puppeting me. Its like, theres no more control on what I want to do anymore, no pride for myself. & honestly, it feels like my family has put a blanket over me so that I can sit around and collect dust. It even feels pathetic, writing this down, and realising how bazar my own feelings are, or even knowing what they are- I dont know. I'm almost making the decission to scare everyone away, without wanting too at all. I'm pathetic. Its like I want to scream and tell everyone I want some attention- the